Always learning…
Learning what kind of writer I am is a fascinating process.
Sometimes, I’ll write and write, and though the words are fine there’s no real story underneath to hold them together. This usually happens when I think I know what story I want to write.
A lot of writers talk about themselves as a duality – the everyday self who does the grunt work of typing, and the muse, or the writer-brain, or lizard-brain, or the characters, or the story council.
I’m definitely finding that I have the same sensation. That there’s a part of me that can spin magic into a story, and a part of me that can type and edit and spell correctly and remember what the character’s names are, and that successful fiction writing requires a delicate balancing act between the two.
In some ways, I feel like I sit down and start writing, and by doing so I invite my writer-brain to come out and see. I’m coaxing it out, like putting out bits of food to coax a small animal out of its hole. And like that small animal, if I look too closely or too directly at it, then it’ll flee back into its hole and make me start the hole process over again.
But if I manage to coax it out and not scare it off, my writer-brain will start poking at the words I’m writing. Sometimes an image of what happens next will pop into my mind, or I’ll realize something I’ve already written should change in *this* precise way.
Once in a great while, my writer-brain will get confident enough to take over, and then the writing flies but I don’t recognize everything when I read over it again. (Sleep deprivation will also have this effect, but I don’t recommend it.)
But a lot of the time I forget that I’m trying to coax out a shy and temperamental part of my mind, and I write blithely on with no attention to anything else, and then wonder why the story isn’t coming out the way I wanted it to. :-p
Braiiiins…
This week…
I’m counting this as “week four” of January for the plan I detailed in the last post, and working on a new short story collection: Zombie Variations.
I’ve been wanting to do this for a while, but I’ve been getting in my own way, I’m afraid. For some reason when my thinking brain spins out lots of “cool ideas” for stories based on logic and reason and articles I’ve read about diseases and nature and so on… my writing brain goes on strike. It seems like the first seed of a story has to come from my writing brain, or else it’s not going to happen.
And since I only had two zombie stories and a few scintillas, I didn’t really feel like there was enough to make a collection out of. If I’m going to put something up for sale, I want the buyer to get more than five minutes of entertainment out of it!
Getting out of my own way…
Getting back into writing after time off is always hard, so I started a few days ago with a new short story – “The Zombie’s Cat.”
Then another one just sort of happened the next day – “Henry.” (Another tear-jerker, I’m afraid, like The Last Day of School. I was crying while I wrote it, at any rate.
I think I know how to expand Lanie’s scintillas into a full story now, and Corpse Pose is going to get an edit and polish too.
And yes, you will get to read them! Once the collection is done and posted to Smashwords, B&N, and Amazon, I’ll post a Smashwords coupon here for a free download – my friends and readers deserve it! The coupon will be good for a month from when I post it, and you can download pretty much any reader format from Smashwords, so keep an eye out.
Mars, Status Update, and Planning…
First off, happy belated 8th anniversary to the Mars Rover Opportunity! I think it’s so very awesome that it’s still going!
Status Update:
OK, so I haven’t written since Sunday, because of going away for a trade show for work Monday through Wednesday, and being too darned tired to write yesterday or this morning… But leaving that aside, I think my first month has gone very well.
The first draft has 20,528 words, and while it isn’t *finished,* I have a good idea of how the last part of the story goes. So I’m going to settle for writing a summary of what happens next in case I come back to it later, and move on to the next one in accordance with my plan.
I definitely think I’ve learned from the experience of my first month, though nothing solid enough to really talk about. I’m looking forward to what the rest of the year will bring!
Planning:
Speaking of which, for February I’m going to try to pattern my writing as follows:
First week: Introduce the characters, the world, and the key problems, as well as complications.
Second week: The characters try to address their problems and make things worse, but there are hints of what the final resolution will be.
Third week: Achieve the final resolution and tie up loose ends.
Week four: Work on short stories, and maybe put one up for sale on Amazon. This’ll give me a chance to let go of the last long story and its pattern before starting the next one. It’ll also let me start building up a body of work for sale, for readers to find me by.
In fact, I think that’s what I’m going to work on this coming week, as January ends and February begins. I think I might take a fresh look at Changing Course.
I’ve been seeing a lot of short stories published as stand-alones for $0.99, and even bought a couple, so it seems like a more reasonable idea to me than it once did. What do you guys think? A decent way to put stuff out there for new readers to find?
Back to blogging… maybe ;-)
Reading about The Dan Plan has made me think about my own plan for this year, and how this blog might fit into it.
As I mentioned before, I’m trying to get a better grasp of longer forms of fiction than my usual 2000-5000 word short stories, and my chosen method is focused practice. I’m writing a long story each month, and trying to be aware of what I’m learning and where my challenges are as I go. It might be that blogging about that process would be interesting reading, or at least interesting writing.
So I’m going to try to be more consistent about posting – not snippets so much as progress reports, and thoughts on writing as I learn more and play with different ideas and approaches.
For today, for instance, I can talk about some thoughts I’ve been having this week: Continue reading
2012 Plans
There’s an old story, I can’t remember where I read it the first time or what the original source material is, but it goes kind of like this:
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A long time ago, an Emperor decided that he wanted the best painting of a rooster ever. He called the most renowned artist in the Empire, and offered him this commission, promising great gifts if he succeeded.
The artist was pleased to serve his Emperor, and accepted the commission, telling him that he would contact him when the painting was completed.
A month went by, and the Emperor sent servants to check on the progress of the painting, but they returned with no news. After six months, he sent a general, but he too returned with no news.
After a year had passed, he went to visit the artist himself, and demanded that he produce the painting, or face death for failing in his commission.
The artist brought out paper, a brush, and ink. In a few deft strokes, he drew the most lifelike picture of a rooster that the Emperor had ever seen, and presented it to him before the paint was even dry.
The Emperor was impressed by the beauty of the painting, but incensed by the fact that the artist had made him wait a whole year, just to create the promised painting in less than a minute. He called upon his guards to execute the artist on the spot.
Before they could strike, however, the artist begged the Emperor to allow him to show him something. He led him to his house, and opened up the door, and within, filling every shelf and table and piled up in drifts were paintings of roosters, none so masterful as the one he had just completed.
“My Emperor,” he said, “I have not made you wait on a whim. I needed the year past in order to learn how to paint a rooster that would be worthy of you.”
***
I want to be a novelist, and the way to get better at writing is to write novels. Of course, I’m also impatient. I want to be a good novelist now, and if not now then as soon as possible. The only way to get there, though, is practice. Lots of practice. Intensive practice.
So currently, my plan is to spend two hours a day writing new words, not revising or editing.
I’m also planning to write a novel (or novella) a month over the course of the year. By the time I’ve written twelve month-long stories from start to finish, I think I should be starting to get the hang of it!
The primary goal here is practice, so to make it easier to shut off my internal editor I’m not going to be posting or emailing the finished first drafts – knowing that no one else will ever see them unless I’m happy with the result will help me to relax and just write, and see what happens. I might post excerpts as scintillas, though.
To keep me honest, I’ll be posting a scorecard at the end of each month, reporting on how long the story is, a one-sentence summary of the story, my thoughts about the story upon finishing it, and what aspect(s) of writing I think I need to focus on with the next one.
I’ll also be making frequent random posts with interesting links and personal updates.
So far, I’ve done two days of writing on the first novel, close to three hours yesterday and not quite two hours today. It’s based on a dream that seemed to be inspired by The Hunger Games, so who knows if it’ll be worthwhile or utter drek, but either way it should be fun, and educational.
What are your plans for the year to come?
An object lesson in point of view:
***First Try***
“Look, Voan! It’s a gap! I wonder where it goes.”
Iffith peered intently at a patch of air, but it looked just like any other to Voan.
“It’s not the season for gaps,” he said. “You’re imagining things.”
Iffith shot him a disbelieving glance before looking back at the same spot. “You can’t see this?” he asked.
Voan rolled his eyes. “No, and neither can you. Now come on, or we’ll be late for Ferr Nolan’s lesson.”
“Grandfather did say that some people couldn’t see them.” Iffith smirked. “Force-blind.”
Voan bristled at the insult, especially since Ferr Nolan had just confirmed the diagnosis two nights ago. Not that Iffith should know about that. “Fine,” he snapped. “If you’re so talented, then show me it’s there. Stick your hand through. Maybe something will do me a favor and bite it off.”
Iffith grinned. “I’ll do you one better. I’ll stick all of me through!” He reached out a hand and slid it down through the air as if parting a curtain. Then, eyes locked on Voan’s, he took a step and disappeared.
“Dung…” Voan winced at the thought of how insufferable Iffith was going to be from now on. He put on a bored look, so that Iffith at least wouldn’t have the satisfaction of seeing him surprised or impressed once he came back.
A minute passed, and then another, and the careful look of boredom shifted into a more honest expression of annoyance.
“Hurry it up, Iffith!” He had no idea if one could hear voices across a gap, but they really were going to be late if he didn’t come back soon. “Iffith!”
He gulped, and took a few steps until he stood in the scuffmarks left by Iffith’s feet. Then he felt around in the air, trying to feel the edge of the gap, even if he couldn’t see it.
It was no use though. The gap, and Iffith, were gone.
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***Alternate POV***
“Look, Voan! It’s a gap! I wonder where it goes.” Iffith peered intently at the strange twist of energy hanging in the air just off the path.
“It’s not the season for gaps,” Voan said, walking past. “You’re imagining things.”
Iffith shot him a disbelieving glance before looking back at the same spot. “You can’t see this?” he asked.
Voan stopped and rolled his eyes in that superior way Iffith hated. “No, and neither can you. Now come on, or we’ll be late for Ferr Nolan’s lesson.”
Iffith stared at him a moment, then realized what that had to mean. No more superior attitude for Voan. “Grandfather did say that some people couldn’t see them,” he said, smirking. “Force-blind.”
The other youngling bristled at the insult, and Iffith knew he had struck a nerve. “Fine,” Voan snapped. “If you’re so talented, then show me it’s there. Stick your hand through. Maybe something will do me a favor and bite it off.”
Iffith grinned. “I’ll do you one better. I’ll stick all of me through!” He reached out a hand and slid it down through the air as if parting a curtain. Then, eyes locked on Voan’s, he stepped sideways into another world.
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Thoughts…
Depending on whose point of view I choose, and whose part of the story I follow, I can wind up with two very different stories!
Decisions, decisions.
Hope… Warning… it’s all the same
So, I’ve now read four of Connie Suttle’s urban fantasy novels, the first of which I talked about a few days ago.
There are two more out, but I think I’m done for now. Unfortunately, the quality of the writing didn’t get any better, and the story lost a lot of its appeal when I realized that all of the male characters had started to seem exactly the same, and entirely loathsome.
(Especially every single one of the love interests. I’d be more than happy to see every single one of them die horribly.)
Partly, though, I hit my flying snowman moment, that one extra detail that shatters your suspension of disbelief like a plate falling off the George Foreman grill onto the kitchen floor. (That was a couple of days ago too.)
I don’t know if the same detail would have hit someone else the same way, but there were a bunch of other details that had already nudged my suspension of disbelief off balance, so I think it was inevitable that something would.
In any case, if reading the first of her books reassured me that a good story can shine through even if your writing isn’t ZOMG AWESOME! yet, then reading the next three reminded me how important it is to keep getting better!
Better at writing, better at plotting, better at making the characters believable individuals, better at anything you can recognize as a weak point.
I’m not saying this as a criticism for her so much as a goad for myself. I don’t know what her goals are, or what she’s doing to work towards them.
For me, though, while my enjoyment of her first book in spite of its flaws reassures me that people might actually enjoy my writing, I want to make sure I remember that what I’m shooting for is the kind of enthralling, well-written, elegantly plotted stories that my favorite authors deliver.
It may take a long time for me to get there, and I doubt I’ll wait til then before publishing novels, but I want to make sure that I’m always working towards that goal, and never coasting along on “good enough.”
Hope… and inspiration :)
One of my favorite urban fantasy authors is (the husband and wife team writing as) Ilona Andrews, as anyone who reads this blog regularly already knows.
So, today I was reading the blog post linked above, where she mentions a $0.99 e-book called Blood Wager. Her comment was that it’s not necessarily as polished as a traditionally published book might need to be, but that the story and voice pulled her in such that she stayed up til 2 in the morning finishing it.
I figured “hey, why not?” and downloaded a free sample… and then bought the e-book, noting as I did so that there were another four (!) books in the series out – which I will most likely be buying as I read through.
The writing really is less polished than I am used to in the trad-published books that are most of what I read, but not so much that it’s getting in the way of me enjoying the story, and I really am enjoying the story! Actually, I think she could easily have split this first novel into two, but I’m not going to complain about getting more bang for my buck!
It also makes me feel better about my ambition to write fiction for a living – I *can* write this well, I think. And I’ll keep getting better, as I’m sure she has over the course of these five novels. I’m also pondering the idea of series again… and I was already thinking about my Ilsa stories, partly because I know they’re some of Brian’s favorites, and partly because my friend Gosia was mentioning them this weekend. And partly because I’ve always wanted to do more with that world, and those characters…
I think Ilsa and Vekev could sustain a pretty lively series, as they travel, discover, and face new challenges. I think I could enjoy writing with them for a long time too.
I have a new novel idea, which I really really liked and started planning… and then started not wanting to write yet, possibly because I’ve planned it too much. So I think I’m going to try something new – having two active projects at once, and just working on whichever catches my fancy the most when it’s time to sit down and write.
Hopefully it’ll still be a fun ride.
New challenge
I’m not sure yet whether a novel-a-month challenge is a good idea or not…
I suppose I think it’s a good plan as long as it’s not getting in the way of a better plan – a good recalibration if I get stalled out or off track. I was going to start writing a new one today.
except…
I have a new story. I can feel it forming in the underbelly of my mind, pieces falling together into interesting but fragile new configurations.
Every few hours or so – sometimes every few minutes! – it spits up a few morsels for my conscious mind to chew on and return, like a cow chewing its cud.
I like the bits and pieces that I’m seeing, but it’s not ready for me to start writing yet.
It’s too fragile, too many segments are still only connected by the vaguest of inclinations. If I start writing now, the whole thing might liquesce and disappear like the barest recollection of having been dreaming.
So I’ll wait, for a little bit, and jot down the tidbits as they come to me, and ask the questions that prod the pieces together and fish up new bits with which to connect them.
If it’s not ready by Christmas, though, I’m starting without it!
Failure can lead to success…
If you just keep trying, and also keep inquiring into why you failed and how you can do better at achieving your goals.
I think I’m giving up on my NaNoWriMo attempt. The story hasn’t gone anywhere I meant for it to, my characters are experts at magically defusing conflict as soon as I introduce it, and they’ve been persistently unwilling to play around in the Mistlands and discover any of its secrets.
I hate them and I want them all to die… Which could probably provide a final burst of 12,000 words by the end of the month, if 50,000 words was my real goal.
My real goal, though, is to get better as a writer, and to learn to write longer, more involved and interesting stories. Sending this one out in a blaze of unreadable glory wouldn’t serve that goal, I don’t think.
Instead, I will consign them to the lonely oblivion of the hard drive, and ponder what I did wrong before I start up another one.
I’m also going to allow myself to read a couple of novels, which I’ve been growing cranky about not reading in the past few days while I’ve been falling out of love with my story.
And I guess that’s the big problem. There’s nothing I love about this story.
I was reading another author’s post about writing 10,000 words per day, and she was saying that one of the keys was feeling enthusiastic about what she was going to write, that another was to know what she wanted to write that day, and that the third was choosing the right times to write.
I kind of wasn’t doing any of those this month. :-p
Ah well. There are definitely lessons to ponder here, and in the meantime, other people’s books to read!

